180 Degrees to Happiness

May 12, 2010 at 1:09 am (Uncategorized)

Photo by Wonderlane

I can’t believe it’s been just over a year since my life was turned upside down…only to find that, in reality, it was being placed right side up again.

It’s been about a year and a week since I came home from work to be told by my soon-to-be-ex husband that he was giving up on our marriage without trying to save it. Now I didn’t realize we had a do-not-resuscitate order to allow our marriage to die at the first sign of serious illness, but there were a lot of things I was clueless about those 3 and 1/2 blessed years.

But this is not to be a diatribe against my ex, though I can guarantee one would be entertaining. It’s about how life can totally flip you upside down, do a complete 180, and leave you feeling as if the earth shifted in it’s orbit and left you behind–and how that can be the biggest blessing the universe will grant you.

Sometimes when we are living our day-to-day existence, we grow to accept those things we should not accept. We rationalize pain and cruelty as part of love and commitment. We begin the slow bleed of losing ourselves in the wasteland that is fear. And we need the universe to kick us on our proverbial ass to wake us up and force us to realize that we are meant for much greater love than this.

So if anyone reading this is in that dark place I was a year ago, feeling as if you have been cast from the life you knew…know this: you have been forced onto a path that can lead you to find yourself and the life you would rather live. Don’t be afraid to follow it into parts unknown, or when it circles back to places you thought you had left behind forever. It is the path for your pilgrimage, where you are the truth you seek.

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2 Comments

  1. becky said,

    Beautiful Rach.

  2. Sherab Wongmo said,

    exactly. great thoughtful article. best wishes!

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